Today begins another December, a very special time of year for me… Looking at my December welcome from the previous year, it is incredibly interesting to see how how much life has changed since then, and yet also to see how many things have stayed the same. The changes in life from living abroad to returning to the Bay Area and working full-time once again have been quite an experience. I feel that in many ways I have grown over the past year, yet still I find myself wanting more time to focus on deep musical work. I will have to spend some time evaluating my current personal projects to see which ones really are essential, though somehow I am sure that they are all essential in some way. Perhaps it will just take time and completing these other tasks first before I can really devote the kind of attention I would like to the musical experiences I feel myself currently distant from…
December is usually a very reflective time for me. Ever since coming back to America I have often found myself lost in memories: Warsaw, Paris, Dublin, Berlin, California, New York, Georgia… These recollections have been so vivid, I wonder how much this December will be spent lost in thought…
Beyond just the memories are the realizations of the passage of time between the memories and the present. The experience of time has been quite rich in this way, in experiencing not only the present now but as well as the past in the present. These experiences of past and present as well as expectations of the future are all very much related to ideas I have worked on in music for a long time, but the recent experiences of being with my memories have given me much to think about…